Why aren’t I happier..? I thought that it would make me happier but I’m still frustrated. I am so sick of holding my feelings in and not being able to talk to anyone because legitimately NOONE except my paid therapist will listen. So fucking frustrating.
I’m right there with you, sister.
Saw this last night, not the moon, not a star, not a plane, definitely not superman…sorry its not a better picture, but cameras on phones need to evolve with the rest of our technological advances. In description it was a colorful glowing sphere, orb, whichever you prefer. In the eastern sky around 10:00pm moving in a northeasterly direction and it seemed like it was sort of skipping across the sky in a zigzag pattern. Slowly at first almost like it wanted me to take its picture, then shot northward at an impossible angle.
Thanks! Ive been reading your posts too, I like the way your mind works … don’t change, you seem to have a very unique personality which is rare but should be treasured.
You ever wonder why we’re here? Why the human species? Who put us here? Why? By a god to serve him? For logics sake, lets assume god was an idea created by man. If there is no god, and we take him and religion out of the equation, what concrete knowledge are we left with? Science…and things we have proved with science. Knowing what we know about our surroundings, (when I say ‘we’ I mean we as a whole species in our collective knowledge) why would our preoccupations consist of running to a job that pays you so you can give it to someone else for something you don’t need and your left with nothing except a sense of accomplishment that you worked your ass off to pay for that needless thing. In the meantime you’re still working your ass off looking forward to the next check to spend on more pointless shit. Of course, we need food, shelter and clothing, but why in such reckless excess? Is this endless cycle why we were put here or is this a distraction from something bigger. We can hardly call ourselves a noble species judging by the way we treat the least of our brothers and I highly doubt we are the pinnacle of creation, but I also doubt we are alive to work for another man and lead meaningless lives. Then again, what do I know. I’m just another cow being herded to the slaughter. I am however, trying to transcend the boundaries, not physically, but mentally and spiritually.
A glass is made and a glass is broken. Everything that we make, in one form or another, will always break. Everything has a beginning and everything has an end. Every tree begins with a seed and will eventually transform back into the earth. This doesn’t mean be apathetic or uncaring or unloving towards, say the glass, but find peace in the knowledge that you expected the glass to break from the time u bought it so ur life does not come to a halt or devastation doesn’t set in when it does shatter. The glass is already broken, the computer is already broken, the dog is already broken. Knowing this will further ur quest for peace.
Funny that “anywhere on your planet” was used in the question as opposed to “anywhere on earth” as usually phrased by some superficial person or other talking about vacation and other meaningless rhetorics. As of late, I’ve been contemplating my own mortality and my status in this plane of existence on this small piece of real estate we call earth. I’ve also been staring into infinity while keeping this in mind (looking at stars) and I’ve found that infinity stares right back…sometimes even speaks back in a way. Without making too much of an automatically generated question, bottom line is I, along with hopefully everyone else, will always call earth HOME. In my lifetime, I believe we will experience an upheaval from our living planet in an attempt to rid itself of the lemming-like reproducing, cancerous growth called man. In the meantime, the whole of the earth is surely a most magnanimous, beautiful and breathtaking thing to behold. With my own eyes, I want to see our earth in its entirety before we do too much damage to our HOME.
The fact is that most of man’s ideology, politics and religions are composed of just so much false and rhetorical bullshit. His politics, wars and self professed sense of moralistic worth are but a simple fabricated facade blanketing his true primordial beastiality. His esoteric motivations rarely go beyond eating, defecating and fucking.
I consider all the trappings of human society as fleeting, transitory things of little value in comparison with the universal order of reality.
Romantic love is not a distraction from spiritual growth but one of the paths by which it may be attained. It tests spiritual maturity in unique ways. It presents unique challenges to your honesty and authenticity. It can be easier to assume the role of guru and address thousands of people from the insulated safety of a lecture platform than to encounter in your living room one human being who might love and respect you but who faces you as an equal and is not afraid to challenge your judgment, question some of your actions, pull you back when you have gone too far, and, when necessary, tell you to ‘come off it.’
